Plan goes down the drain

dang i've been thinking of a plan and considered carrying it out today when the time was right. sadly... circumstances have changed and things that i didn't notice before, dawned upon me like how an apple fell on Isaac Newton and he discovered gravity. it was dissapointing as i have been thinking about it the whole week which resulted in multiple wakeups in the middle of the night and some interesting dreams. oh well so much for the plan... still sometimes i wonder whether i tend to give up on something too easily.

found my spot again!

hmm.. i seem to have a knack of finding good dark spots in places for me to sit back and thing about my life. i dunno y i like sitting alone in the dark in the deafening silence. it just slows down time and lets me just stop thinking about things. gives me a place to relax. i think everybody needs a place like this to be themselves for a moment. i do believe the saying that people put on different masks in front of different people or situations. cos sometimes i feel like i'm not being myself. isn't that what life is about? finding one's self? and maybe finding the other part that completes you?

the transition from being a student to a working adult! how scary is that?

maybe u're reading this and thinking "ahh its still a long way for me" but let me tell u this, time flies and without knowing you find yourself crossing the the bridge with a huge billboard saying:- "WELCOME to the Working World!
Benefits are:
1) you get money at the end of the month
2) you get to meet hot chicks at your work place (fingers crossed)
3) no more EXAMS!

Downsides are:
1) 9-5 job in a cold office
2) office politics and bad coffee
3) time flies and before you know it you're 60 and your butt is humongous because u sit on it all day

sigh... when u've reached this stage in life like urs truly, u'll be reminising about the good old days when u use take naps in the afternoon later to be awaken by ur mom saying its time for dinner. u'll also be extremely tired everyday because u were so used to coming home early after classes and have the whole afternoon to play or sleep. have to go the trainer is eyeing me. to be continued...

ok i'm back so where was i... right... so every step of the transition process was kinda scary for me considering the fact that many of my ex classmates are still looking for work. they graduated 2 weeks ahead of me. yeah i know finding a job can be hard in this job saturated environment and it can be even harder to find one that is suited to ur qualification. what about the competition from other fresh graduates who come from more famous universities with a longer resume? thus the prospect of fighting for jobs with them can be somewhat disheartening and demoralising. gonna go for training now... to be continued

sleepy and a bit bored

its been awhile i know... but here i am sitting in a training room learning about XML, epic editor and sigma link and falling slowly but surely asleep. 2 more weeks of training and i can start the real thing. dang my 10 mins break is just about up