wish i had something to drink

i'm back in australia after 3 months of hanging out with my best buddies, playing basketball, working my ass off, goyang kaki at home and downloading new dramas. it was so back to normal that i didn't want it to end.... but... all good things come to an end... so here i am... back in my room of solitude with the adventures of clark kent in smallville for company. i have been listing down the things to do tomorrow and i don't think there will be enough hours. coming back here the second time i was less nervous but it has been replaced by stress and pressure. as it is the last sem, it will be time to find a job and the best possible situation is for me to find a freaking great job in a PR consultancy or in the hotel industry which will enable me to extend my visa allowing me to get my permanent residence. everything ends and begins this semester and i'm at a lost. Doubt sets in after much mulling over it and questions... many questions like How, When, Where pops up at every corner. life's unpredictable nature rears its ugly head again. i still am thirsty right now but i know that if i succumb to the temptation of the lone packet of orange juice sitting in the fridge i will be left with nothing else besides tap water until tomorrow night. and lets not forget what happenned the last time i drank Australian tap water.... shudder.... so here i am with my lips parched and tongue dry as the desert, waiting for a miracle to happen. but then again miracle doesn't happen if u just sit on ur butt and do nothing. thats what differentiates normal people from those who just seem to get everything their way. its down to intiative and thinking out of the box. so i'm gonna try thinking out of my head for a change and go drink my friend's water for a change. maybe then i'll get hepatitis.

its been awhile....

yup its been awhile... with a blink of an eye, i've been back in malaysia for 2 months and its great to be back. i've just ended my internship with Dynasty hotel and i have to say it was a great eye opener. well... i haven't been in a real working environment before so this experience really kinda opened my eyes to the realities of life. moving on with my ramblings... my love life has been pretty much like a dead fish. and i emphasize the word "Dead". i have come to realize that its pretty hard to meet girls in my current state which consist of staying at home, going out with my buddies and .... hmmm.... that's pretty much it.... sigh.... hmm... why do i always talk about girls.... hmm.... nothing wrong right? i'm a guy so i should talk about girls.... if not? talk about the injustice towards the palestinians? have u ever had experienced trying very had and finally succeeding in forgetting something painful and out of no where it bites u in the ass? well that's what happened to me today and it kinda made me depressed. there's this new chinese series on tv and the actress looked extremely like my not so recent ex. further more i was pretty cranky to begin with. and now i feel nostalgic... i miss being in a relationship but when i am in one i miss being single... people always want things that they don't have. its as simple as that. on a happier note, i have come to realise that i have good friends. actually i've known that for a long time. its great that coincidently we are all currently single and have time to hang out with each other whether its playing warcraft, basketball, swimming, computer shopping at lau yat or just hanging out. i'm pretty thankful for them. so here's to everybody who is a good friend to somebody.