Life is full of surprises

oh boy... it has been a week or actually two weeks of surprises one after another. first the good news is that i got a casual job as a market researcher. the job description is calling random ppl to ask them survey questions. it was harder than expected and i had to accept over 500 rejections on my first day. amazing that i'm still excited to go back. well i haven't mentioned that the pay is quite good... but Australia is one of the countries that pays the highest wages in the world. another funny and surprising thing is that i kinda got rejected by a girl even before anything happened. hmmm.... that was pretty funny and sad for some reason... so moving on to the next suprise i got a message from my not so recent ex and it stirred up old feelings. i guess i will have to get used to it. i've also found my spot of solitude. its kinda like a place where you can go to just sit and stare into emptiness. before it was sitting on the tiles of my bathroom floor with the lights off and the shower on at full blast. now it is my dark closet. sitting on the floor with my legs curled up close to my chest. i will then vent my anger and frustration by punching the curtains of my closet. oh ya my closet has a curtain for a door. it is a place where i can find peace just like lying on a field shaded by tall trees with the sunlight bouncing off the pond beside me but only that it is more when i am in a negative mood whether it is depression, sadness, frustration or loneliness. i think i'm gonna sign off. if u need me i'll be in my closet.

Today was a good day

it started out wet and gloomy but it turned out to be the desired weather as i set up with a hundred or so ppl from erica to Rottnest. however as those who are consistant readers of my blog would know, the purpose of my blog is not to tell the events of the day but to express my feelings and emotions at a certain period of time. Right now i'm pretty undecided on a certain person whom i kinda like. we have been pretty close but not the kind which is close to being a couple yet. there is still a sense of shyness or as singaporeans like to put it, "pai seh" between us. I guess its probably because we've known each other for over a period of 2-3 weeks. at times i feel like i don't want to rush things and would prefer to adopt a wait and see strategy to this situation but at times i can be a bit too spontaneuos and impulsive. i get myself into awkward situations which will result in things being awkward and then u know what happens. for example before leaving malaysia, u could say i did an extremely impulsive thing whereby i gave a friend a thank you present which very easily could have been misunderstood and i think it might have. its made things awkward between me and my friend. i really wish i'd given a different present. anyway hope i don't screw up this time... cos... i think this time it could be great...

life is much harder than it seems

i've just attended my PR corporate class this morning and i had a rude awakening into the real world where competition for jobs are so tight that everybody is doing their best to improve their resumes. the thing about perth is that most, well actually every employer is looking at the applicant's working experience in that field. so when my classmates especially the Aussies started listing down all their working experience as part of their preperation for the working world, i was pretty left out. From the national cancer foundation to PR consultancy companies, meanwhile i only had a short internship in the hotel industry. it brought th sky down and i was willing the earth to swallow me up and spit me out the other side off the globe... some of them also talked about wanting to travel and work in different countries and i felt something stirring inside me. i was envious and at the same time wishing that i had the resources and courage to do the same.