Is this the end?

4pm, i double clicked the yahoo messenger shortcut. It opened to a message that goes like this "i wanna tell u tat i wanna break up wif u....i think u know y.....coz i think that our attitude and thinking is not the same.....and i'm really suffering...i hope u undertand my feelings...anywya...hope u can still be fren wif me...reply me msg!!....". i was kinda shocked as i didn't expect this. usually there are signs of breakup like the usage of harsh words, screaming, things thrown around, tears, begging, answering machine and so on. but this one was so sudden that i'm still reeling from the shock. the first time i read it it didn't quite register. the second time i read it, questions started forming in my head like "how come i didn't see the signs?", "the last time we spoke, things were normal so where did this come from?", "SUFFERING? really?!?!" and the usual question that comes to mind "Is there someone new?" well it would seem that she has already made up her mind. i've only begged once in my life to a girl who is not my mother and i don't intend on doing that again. listening to my break up songs right now... i'm feeling really sad right now.... u know when u get that feeling where u chest swells up with emotion and your eyes start to become blurry. i'm not a crying type of guy but sometimes i wish i could release everything that is pent up inside. some how i think i kinda guessed this was coming what with me over here and her back home. guess she cracked first. anyhow, at least it was great while it lasted. wow josh groban's "She's out of my life" just came up on my speakers. just on time. so here i am waiting for her to come online to sort things out. to at least understand why....