dreams...

... isn't it weird that you feel what you really feel inside when you're in a dream. its the raw emotions that you surpress when you're awake. have you ever dreamed about the girl or guy that you have a crush on? well i had one and she ended up being my gf for a year. i take my dreams quite seriously because i feel that it tells me what i'm really feeling inside. That is if i remember them :p Sometimes when something happens to me when i'm awake, i feel a sense of dejavu. like it has happened to me before and i can't remember when. Maybe i'm just being paranoid but i would think that maybe i dreamt about this and i somehow forgot about it but it remained in my subconcious waiting to be triggered. I don't think i have psychic powers or anything like that but maybe i daydream a lot. when i have nothing better to do i sometimes daydream about what i would do if a something was to happen to me. i would create a senario in my head like if i was suddenly bathing and a hot naked girl suddenly burst into the bathroom wanting to bath with me, what would i do? haha.... in my dreams right? The reason why i'm writing all this down is because i had a pretty weird dream this afternoon when i accidently napped until 6.45. in my dream, i was at home and then all of the sudden this guy claiming to be my ex's ex burst in and said he was looking for her. i think i told him to bugger off or something like that but then i was kinda jealous and decided to go over to her house for what reason i have no idea. suddenly the first girl that i had a major crush on appears beside me and we run over to my ex's house but in the dream it was another friend's house. so after a lot of running through streets and alleys i arrived there and there was this sign outside on the gate and it was something like a chess competition or something like that and printed below it was my name VS somebody elses name which i can't remember. i have no idea what that means. anyway i rush up to the gate inside and shouted for her and then the person who appeared at the gate was my opposite neighbour and she had a sad look on her face. and it hit me that the reason why she was so sad was because my ex died!?!?! why did i think she was dead? anyway i dunno why i just had that feeling of dread and shock suddenly wash over me just like the time when i was told that one of my best friends at LUCT died of asma (this one really happened). immediately after i got that feeling i woke up and i'm still feeling the effects of it. Maybe its the music that i listen to... a friend recently told me that the music that i listen to sounds quite depressing. anyway y do i dream of ppl close to me dying? i have also dreamed of my parents passing away and i really cried in my dreams and i when i woke up i had wet my pillow. not with urine but with tears... shesh..... i think its because i fear that the people i care about would leave me whether its dumping me or going up there. i think it pulls me back from making any moves on any girl that i might like. Life is like having a job. You go to work everyday thinking that its just another day when suddenly the boss fires your coffee buddy because he was stealing coffee!! what i mean is that life can be really unpredictable. one day u think everything is fine and the next someone u know or care is not in your life anymore. i think we should be more kinder to those we care about. instead of saying how thin they are and that they should eat more, why not focus on the good things about him? like my father always say to me and my brother, "talk about the good things about people and not the bad things".